Time to say goodbye
Moved.Relink please, everyone?
Goodbye
2006, I had my ups & downs with you & you were great. You're a red-letter, yearful of memories & they're kept safely in my heart.
Hello
2007, I welcomed you with all my heart & I hope you're gonna be a better year than 2006 was (:
Goodbye
midwestloveaffair-, I'd miss you. You're a blogful of memories held close to my heart. You were perfect, definitely. You were there when I needed to rant, you went through with me & my ups & downs. Thank you for the past year, very much.
I'd still visit this place when I'm in that reminising mood.
Aw I hate to say goodbye.
10:38 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Take off that silver dress & expose your naked heart
Jo Haha I didn't know what was your url then! K anyway it was all a misunderstanding (: Haha maybe you wanna add me on MSN? We can talk there if you wanna (:
April I paid $296.10 for it (: Thanks a lot babes.
Rena Thanks babes (:
Graceyeoh I finally told you about it last night. I'm so sorry to disturb you in the night all the time okay! But anyhoos, thanks for everything Grace (: (: (: I'm waiting for your mail babes. Quickquick! :D
Connie Yeh relinked (:
Alethia I am so pissed la k.
Jyi Definitely! Very shocked okay. You got my address from Rena, did you?
Mary Haha I love it so much. I'm really red now. Red bag, red watch, red iPod. :D
Michelle Say yay! :D
Lycia But I'm really tired of it :/ I don't know if I should. Ahhhh. Haha pictures below! :D
Cecilia Hello back to ya! (:
WenLin WHY DIDN'T YOU GO MAN! You should've went la k. Anyway what were you suppose to do in the show anyway?
Thanks for commenting.
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You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind.
Well, here it goes: I hate you for what you've done to me.Thanks a lot Qiaos
<33Uploading the pictures that day at VCH into Photobucket now. The net's better, I guess? Was slow yesterday but it isn't that bad now. At least it's uploading the pictures! At least I have photos to upload in here :/
I was fucking praying so bad that who we guessed about was wrong, that it wasn't
you. I feel so sorry for myself now. I should thank you for whatever you've done but I can't be thankful at the moment. I should really go think about it. You cared, I know you did. I'm ultra disappointed, somehow. Being - for the silliest thing ever. For whatever that you've done, you shown no remorse. Well, maybe you did but you didn't wanna portray it. Sigh. I guess we both need to think about it.
What you did & said made me lost her, totally. How can I be thankful?
I'd of been there as you were through horror & hardship
My life & my love are pledged to you.Long entry ahead babies.First! VCH's photos (:
Before the show (:
Dad :D
He was telling her that he wants to take a photo with her & her autograph. Hahah
Make up time!
Val was helping out!
Aunt Alice's friend & Aunt Sally(Oh I love her to bits)
So cute.
So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee
Act camera shy.
Mirror
Aw baby why you so cute
Look @ Pearlyn
She & her actions
Why her mom.. don't want her? ):
Captions another time, dad screaming! -runsI'm really sorry if you actually find it so
fucking boring but I really love the show, love the operaaaa (: Very cheena, very 'old', I know! Pearlyn is so cute. Quick say that she is! Quick tell me quick!
Went to the
zac-ooh-ohh on Thursday! :D With Aunty Ferline, Cherilyn, Aunty Shirley, Gran, Mom, Zel & I. Took 159 from the interchange, alighted at AMK & met the rest. Took 138 & off to Mandai! :D It rained halfway through when we were at the children's area ): So we didn't spend much time there after that. Tigers, lions, leopards & jaguars was the last few we saw while walking back to the entrace. Bought stuff at the store & called for two cabs & went to Causeway Point!
Not much photos though. Cam dead on me before we even started to look at orang utan ):
Went to Causeway Point. Ate at the food court. I haven't been there for a really long time man. & I was damn scared if I'd - there. :/ Walked around, & took 161 back home. Helped Aunt Shirley to get a cab & she went home with Jermaine (: Walked back home, used the com for awhile & went for dinner with all the opera people. Photos are with Allan ): I didn't bring the cam 'cos no battery. I'll put up the pictures once he pass the cd to me. :D
Met Qiaos for a movie on Friday (: Went over to Lido & all. Got approached by the iModels people again :/ I think I saw Pei Zi! Texted her but she didn't reply. We watched
Charlotte's Web! Greatttttt show, really. Should watch if y'all hadn't (: I love Wilbur. Go watch go watch go watch. I teared twice & cried twice. Ahhhh such a nice show. Qiaos didn't wanna watch it at first but I was whining like fuck then she finally agreed :D
So after the movie, we walked over to Far East to look for Qiaos' school shoes. Walked around & bought earstuds again :D Haha. Took a train back at around 5plus, camwhored & ta-dah!
Q Why you always like to take me messaging?
G Huh I don't know. Got always meh!?
She alighted at Serangoon to take a bus to meet Shyan at Gardens. Went home, showered & went for dindin. Sent Gran back to our place first 'cos we need to go down to the hospital to visit Godpa. When we got there, Aunt Jo, Aunt Doris, Aunt Alice, Uncle, Laojie, Sally, Rhys & Jason, all were there with Godma sitting by the bedside. He looked a lot better (: I'm relieved. Sally gave me a hundred buckeroos! :D Yayness. Some of them left while Godma, Aunt Jo, Aunt Doris, Laojie& us stayed & went for supper after that @ Mac's (:
Today! Aunt Jo came to pick Zel & I for lunch. Had Crystal Jade's @ PS! :D Then ice-cream @ Swensen's after that :D Yummmmeh. Went to the bank &amp;amp;amp;amp; all, took a train to Clake Quay & met Mom & Dad @ Funan.
I finally got my laptop! :D Yayness! I'm using the computer now, Zel's using the laptop. Heh heh 'cos there's no internet there yet :D Monday monday! After that, we went to Swensen's(
again -.-) for dinner but I had nothing. Not hungry. K come to talk about it, I'm rather hungry now. :/
And here is my sexy
red iPod (:
This is what my mom does whenever she is free. -.-
She snatches the com okay, & she always win. Always!
Whoa it's long. :/
Truth Is played & I.. -shrugs
(Truth is) I never got over you I still love you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes With you
(Truth is) and when it's all said and done, guess I'm still In love with you No 'guess', I definitely am.
I'm going to sleep now. It's 1120pm.
I know you're hoping that I'd call. But I'm sorry. You should've known it better that I won't. I've learnt to live my life on my own, independently. I've learn. I need to. I don't wanna depend on you too much. & thanks for your concern, I am fine. If you would wanna do me a favour, stop texting my friend. Thank you very much, your help is much appreciated. Anything you wanna say, everything to me. I hope you'd find someone else better soon. Much love.
Curse of the Golden Flower with Mom & Dad tmr (: (: (: I pray for no bad mood, no quarrels, no unhappines. God please, I've been wanting to catch a movie with my folks for ages! God please god, small requeast!
Long entry uh?
Nights!(:
Times were tough but memories remain.
<3.
10:33 AM
Mend this broken thing./
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I'll purse my lips to blow kisses goodbye
April Nope, I didn't. I wanted to but if I do, then I'll have to order it & I'll have to pay more. I got it from my mom's friend who is working in Apple & he can get it for me at a staff's price (: Anyway I just got it today! :D Oh plus! Mom was saying that if I don't want it anymore, I can sell it. With my name engraved, I can't possibly sell it right? Haha.
Mary Haha yeap, thanks! You too! :D
Jyi I received your card hons, thanks a lot. Was a bigggggg surprise! Hahaha. Relinked!
Pert Merry Christmas, take care (: Thanks anyway!
Jo Haha omg I am so so so sorry! ): I thought you were Jo 'cos Jo tag as JO as well! Hahah omgggg I am so sorry okay!
Graceyeoh Really la! Aiyo hahaa. Fuck man, if only you stay one street away or, next block(even better).
Thanks for commenting
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They say sometimes you need some time apart,
But I've got a bad case of broken heart.
And you're the only one that's got the cure.
And I can't live another day without seeing you smile.
I feel like changing email. But I'll have to go through the hassle to add everyone again & some people might not add me in, thinking I'm some asshole. Plus, I have to go to all the stupid accounts I've signed up for like, Photobucket, Friendster, Blogger, Youtube, Singtel & etc. to change my email so they don't send emails to my old account & all. Damn troublesome, tsk. And I don't know what to change to.
The net is goddamn slow & it's killing me.
Cramps are killing as well.
I had a tiring night yesterday. But it was really fun (: I'm kinda down now(read below), & I'd love to let the pictures do the talking BUT the net is really slow due to the earthquake in Taiwan.
Called Best just now. She's finally back in action & I can call her as & when I like it now :D Berry happy. But I don't quite like what I heard from Best. I'm fine, I'm good. Not gonna let it affect me, I'm not gonna show her that side of me. Well, there's nothing much to show ay?
You weren't there when I needed you, when I was fucking there when you rang in the middle of the night, in the midst of my deep, very-much-wanted sleep. I didn't mind keeping you accompanying until you feel tired. I didn't mind spending time with you, listening to you. I didn't mind if I missed the whole night of sleep just to accompany you, to make you feel better & doze off in lessons the next day at school. I didn't mind if you break my heart again & again with your choices, your words, the way you treated me. I didn't mind at all. But this was what I deserve.
Woke up with a good news (: My sexy red iPod is here! :D Hahah yayness! I've got photos of it. Mom asked Dad to picked it up for me & send her friend back home 'cos he isn't driving tday & he has a iMac comp to bring home. I was screaming when I knew he could get a iMac comp for us. Zel went for tuition in the morning. Mom & Gran went for their dental appointment. Gran came back after that, while I walked over to meet Mom. Gran had her tooth extracted. Gee I can still feel the tingling hweeling. I hate hearing that. Just.. damn comfy ): Took a bus down to school & got my two books changed. The bookshop auntie got two sets of B books for me, for Chinese. After that, took 136 down to Zel's school & got her school blouse. Dad came to pick us! :D :D :D Heh I love the iPod. So pretty! Went over to the coffee shop to have lunch (: Didn't finish my food, again. :/ Tranferred the money to mom's friend. Bought my magazines & newspaper for Dad. I'm broke luh k. :( Dad drove us home & he went back to work.
Got home, charged the iPod & did my stuff. Zel came home, making a lot of noise. She did one page of the scrapbook though :/ Mom played the com for like 5 hours! Hahaha. I packed my schoolbag for school already (: Hahah I love my bag k (: Talked to mom about some family issues & sigh, it's sad to know that we're behaving like one but actually, we aren't one at all. It's okay if you don't understand (: Filled up my address book already! Very contented (:
I'll put up the pictures tmr, I guess. firefox can't even load up Photobucket's page :/ Ugh this is so damn annoying luh okay. Dad ordered Mac's for us. Yayness! Fries, finally! :D
You're fucking making me think if everything that you ever said to me was true. I fucking wish I didn't lend you a hand when you needed help. I didn't know this was what I deserve from all the shits I've gone through to help you. Thanks fucker, very much appreciated & I guess I don't need you in my life anymore, after all. Thank you & good-a-bye.
Grace, I wished you were here when Best told me about _. ):
I am so not gonna cry. I am holding back the fucking tears.
Make me a tape of my favorite songs.
<3.
10:43 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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I miss you most on sundays
April Yeap, received! Thanks babes. ;)
Yifang Who is which person?
Prunella Yeh I'm fine already, don't worry yeap (: (: (:
Shuhui Yeap thanks, I'm better now (:
Jo Uh I don't get it! So are you Saggi or Scorpio? Huh I don't know! Haha I always go BLAHBLAH sexy! Hahah it's a habit already. No other intentions or whatever k! Hahahahaha. K you might be thinking I'm some pervert. -.- Love you anyway Jo, for being so lovely, wanting to go zac-ooh-ohh with me :D
Graceyeoh Parents issue (: I'm fine now. Worry not k! :D I love you supaaaa much Grace. I think I can never have a friend like you again.
Jovenelim I miss you leh pok! Hahaha what's your new url? :D
Thanks for commenting!
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K I still went for the rehearsal. People keep calling me & I wanted to see Pearlyn in her opera costume (: Well, in other words, I didn't wanna upset anyone :/ & HA HA I didn't jump to my death if you're expecting me to. Sorry haters, I'm still alive. :D
So I got ready after playing Zuma on the comp. I kept ranting to my maid that I dread going & all. Grr.. Left after that. Took a train down to City Hall. So effin' pissed.
Now you'll know why. K I'm gonna explain just in case you don't understand. I got out of City Hall, called Zel & she said she's still in Vivo, cannot come over to pick me. So okay, I called Sally, telling her that it's drizzling & I can't go over. She asked me to get a brolly & go over. By the time I got out of Raffles City, it fucking stopped raining -.- So I walked over to Sg Recreation Club, whatever for? I don't know. I really don't know. Called Sally again, & walked back to St Andrew's Church, past the high court & all. Called her again, & she came out to find me. Goddamn Jesus Christ! I was like Shitshitshit I wanna call Qiaolin nownownow. She would probably laugh at me but I don't really care 'cos I'm a total direction-idiot. K I really am. & by the way, I was supposed to alight at Raffles Place & not City Hall. Argh !!
When I got there, Pearlyn was having her make-up done by her make-up aritste. Berry kute ;) Val, Allan, Aunt Alice, Auntie Sally, Alex. Mom, Dad & Zel came after awhile. Everyone was there, encircling the both of them. Pearlyn got a stern look on her face when she was having her make-up done. She got lipstick on & when I call to her, she just merely waved at me. Haha. After that, some auntie(from the troupe as well) came & asked Val to dress her up, tie up hair as they want to get her photographs taken & all. So they chingchingchiongchiong & off she go.
After that, Allan, Val, Alex & I went over to the opposite restaurant, Viet Lang(A Vietnamese restaurant) for dindin! :D Had Cinderella, some drink. The rest ate, I didn't. Shared the fried rice with Alex & she happily gave me all the prawns -.- She's allergic! Haha. Went back to VCH & watched the show. They were trying to tape down the whole thing, perfectly. Gosh I really dislike that teacher! He's from China & so his dialect sounds a little different from ours but it's the same. The chinese acents is there & all. He kept Ting ting ting! (ask to stop/ cut) which is so damn annoying! Scene 7 is the last scene & that's when Pearlyn appears (: OOH-AM-GEE OHHMAHGAWD SHE IS SO CUTE.
Anyhoos, the pictures! I'll probably snap proper ones today with a proper camera. I'm so sorry!
Pearlyn!
Can you see her!! OMG
Omg damn cute damn cute damn cute
She is my niece, mine mine mine
In the show, the one in blue's her dad.
Omg Pearlyn! The one in brown is the servant & the one in white is her mom.
Her dad was very touched to see his three-year-old kid.
Read the newspaper! :D They are inside along with this auntie (:
(Ah peck auntie as the main lead grieving over his wife)
Sexy treees.
Val actually fell asleep! HOW COULD YOU!
The bride! I wanna dress like her leh but aunt say Your head ah! ): Tsk
The show is nice (: Today & tmr only.
Actually it's about this two brothers, one of them(the one in blue) Wen Xue is kinda 'wanted'. He ran away then asked the servent(in green in the last second picture) to help him. But instead of helping, he actually betrayed Wen Xue to save himself. (Selfish pig) He became the king(sort of)'s servent, something like that. SoWen Xue was caught. The king's servent told Song Ren(Wen Xue's sworn brother) if Wen Xue's wife Xiong Ying agree to marry the king, they would let Wen Xue go after three years & Song Ren would become a soldier(something like that la). Song Ren didn't know what to do. And in two thours' time, he have to come to a decision as the king would come & bring the wife & all. So Song Ren tricked his wife to see if she is greedy about the position & all. They argued, blahblahblah. Then the wife decided that she would take her sister(Xiong Ying)'s place. Xiong Ying overheard their arguement & Xiong Ying tried to stop her sister, still her sister got the wedding dress & everything. When her sister got to the palace, she killed the king's servent. she tried to kill the king but didn't, so she commited suicide in front of Song Ren. He became the soldier so he's there & all. After three years, Wen Xue was out. He went to visit Xiong Ying's sister's grave, thinking it's Xiong Ying. Song Ren came & Wen Xue fought with him, for summoning Xiong Ying to the king. Song Ren explained the whole situation & told him that their three-year-old kid is with his wife, in their hometown. (This is where Pearlyn appears, hohoho) K then Xiong Ying came out, told Wen Xue he wronged Song Ren & all. Wen Xue was so touched by his brother & his wife's doing. All of them came round & hugged each other.
I'm sorry k, I know my english very kiam chai 'cos I'm rushingggggggggggggggggg. Needa go down to VCH already ): ): & I'm not dressed yet!
You wanna know the story ah? Come & watch! :D There's a ticket for 10 bucks (:
For the Leos. (:
The Bottom Line
Slow down the pace and think. It's a good day to do any research you need to do.
In Detail
This month's most active phase is finally coming to a close, and you should be ready to slow down the pace and crawl into your own head for a while. This isn't necessarily a time for deep self-examination. But it's a very good day to do any research you need to do. Complicated charts, abstruse facts and myriad details will all make sense to you instantly. And if you listen to your instincts while you're making your decisions, you are sure to make wise ones.
I finally got my schoolbooks (: & I cleared the shelves, the stack of testpapers & more testpapers (: I feel like I'm such a good girl though no one has yet to notice the space. :/
I'll tell you what I got for Christmas! Pictures another day. :D Heh I got a piglet cushion & a small Happy House bag from Shufennnn, a Prints personalized notebook from Laojie, a Scrapbooking for Beginners book & a Forever Friends notebook from Sally, a Happy House addressbook from mummy(it was just a passing comment that day when I walked pass her & said I need a proper address book, not brackbrack* one. Aiyo), 7 keychains & Parker pen from Godma Vivian, a big Doraemon cup(same as Laojie!) from the gift exchange thingy we had on Sunday. :D Not as much though ): But ohwells, contented (: (: (:
*brack = black. haha
OH & thanks Veron for helping me with the clearing (: Haha she's getting some books from me!
OH OH & Mummy ordered the red iPod for me alreadyyyyyyyyyy :) It'll b shipped in in another 24hours' time (: (: (: This is happiness + love + joy.
It's a beating heart I made for you.
<3.
5:26 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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All I want for Christmas is you
Cam I love it okay, I've browsed through it before & all (: Ahhhhh ultimate loveeeeee
Grace I know! My Sister's Keeper is also nice, have you read that? Nah it's okay (: I was wondering why didn't you tag & all, then I thought you might be at your dad's place & all (: Thanks! Didn't really thought that anyone would like it. Merry christmas to you too babes! Love yoooou much!
April Is that book nice? Actually most of her books are fab! Haaha Merry Christmas to you April love (:
Yifang K you're starting to sound like someone I hate to the max. You hardly tag so I thought you don't read at all, haha.
Jyi Which? PS. I Love You? It's fabbbbbbbb :)
Jo Relinked! Merry Christmas sexyyyy :) Oh Friendster! Hahah. You were expecting something else than Friendster's horoscope right, hahaha.
Chesna Merry Christmas to you too babes!
Rena Merry Christmas to you!
Laura Merry Christmassssss (:
Thanks for commenting
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Thanks Jace, Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas to one & all! :D
Most of you should have received my Christmas cards :) I was rushing for time so I didn't make handmade ones for everyone. I really wanna get everyone the handmade one but I didn't have the time to make for everyone. So the very last minute thing, I got cards & just wrote some greetings & sent them all out. Sorry guys, really sorry! This Vday or CNY okay? I'll try my very best to get everyone a handmade one :) I'm not biased :D
0415pm
I spent the past four hours crying my eyes out, thinking if what I just did was wrong in any way. My eyes hurt now, very badly & I can barely open my eyes. I didn't wanna spend Christmas like this, I didn't wanna make Christmas like this for you. I'm always at fault while you're never, or rather you never admit. When you're serious, I take whatever you said to heart - whether you meant it or not. I ruined your weekend for the past few weeks & I don't wanna make it worse this time. I'll stick around on my own, I'll leave you alone. I make sure I'm away from you unless needed. When you said you didn't want me around, I won't go near. I hate to make you upset, & allow your emotions affect the rest of them. You don't know how it has affected me when you said that to me last week. From then, I've decided if I'm not needed, I won't go near. And if you're gonna break whatever promise you've made, I hate you. And the hatred will stay in me, my whole life.
I'm really tired, very sick & tired of facing this. If we're falling apart, I'll move a step away from you so I can stitch up whatever's tearing. I can't stand crying over & over again everyday for the same ol'reason. I don't want to, I don't have to, I don't need to. I didn't wanna call up the rest to ask how am I suppose to go, when am I suppose to go 'cos I didn't wanna embarrass you, I didn't wanna allow them to speak ill of you. I didn't like that. I want their impression of you to stay as perfect as it is.
Perhaps the appearance of me irks you. Don't worry. I remembered what you said about me moving out. I will okay? Once I've found a place to settle down, I will. And by then, you'll never see me again. Wave hello to Peace there.
Why? Because if I don't, then you're not gonna be happy, none of us is either. So I stepped out. You ought to be happier, isn't it?
Well, I still could even thought a phone call might save my day but no, I was wrong. Ha ha ha I won't think in this way anymore.
I wanan know what's gonna go on for the rest of the day. Whether I'd jump to my death & join the rest up there celebrating the birth of Christ or I'd still come home happily after that fucked up rehearsal to sleep & wake up tmr to get my schoolbooks.
Why should I care? You weren't there when I was scared, when I was so alone.
Avril Lavigne's Losing Grip.
Now, should I still go for the rehearsal?
If I don't go, everything's gonna get fucked up & the person who's losing out ain't gonna be me. Well, later then I'll decide.
The entry starting off good, I'm sorry about the bitter ending.
Merry Christmas.
I'm tired of making love to a memory.
<3.
4:40 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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Here is a red balloon: I think of you & let it go
Prunella Eeee got D, no G la k. Although I know there'a D&G(So coincident!). Hahaha.
April Relinked! :D No dont mind (: It's the thought thats count, dear!
Thanks for commenting (:
Christmas eve (:
Mood: Emo.
Current track on repeat:
MidwestLoveAffair-@Blogspot
Now you'll know why. K I'm gonna explain just in case you don't understand. I got out of City Hall, called Zel & she said she's still in Vivo, cannot come over to pick me. So okay, I called Sally, telling her that it's drizzling & I can't go over. She asked me to get a brolly & go over. By the time I got out of Raffles City, it fucking stopped raining -.- So I walked over to Sg Recreation Club, whatever for? I don't know. I really don't know. Called Sally again, & walked back to St Andrew's Church, past the high court & all. Called her again, & she came out to find me. Goddamn Jesus Christ! I was like Shitshitshit I wanna call Qiaolin nownownow. She would probably laugh at me but I don't really care 'cos I'm a total direction-idiot. K I really am. & by the way, I was supposed to alight at Raffles Place & not City Hall. Argh !!
Can you see her!! OMG
Omg damn cute damn cute damn cute
She is my niece, mine mine mine
In the show, the one in blue's her dad.
Omg Pearlyn! The one in brown is the servant & the one in white is her mom.
Her dad was very touched to see his three-year-old kid.
Read the newspaper! :D They are inside along with this auntie (:
(Ah peck auntie as the main lead grieving over his wife)
Sexy treees.
Val actually fell asleep! HOW COULD YOU!
The bride! I wanna dress like her leh but aunt say Your head ah! ): Tsk
